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I often think about what I want to do with my life, what work I want to pursue, while I work, at work.

Its not that I cannot accept my current situation, nor is it that I feel compelled to find a "better" job. It's just the feeling that if I continue on the path of least resistance, I would regret not taking the chances, the future experiences that I want to define me and I would continually question  where my piece of the puzzle fits.. I have to quit the "real world" to put myself in the real world in all its natural, simplistic wildness.

Today leaves me with a question that I cannot answer yet. I believe I can complete 3000 miles alone, but what does alone mean..

At times I just want to drive up there, get in, and bring no attention to my whereabouts. Isn't it more real that way? Not having any commitments to companies, no extra camera equipment, gear, and necessities that aren't even necessary if I just paddle....to paddle

People who would understand what I'm trying to do, the ones who seek to further their understanding of themselves and reconnect with that wild inner soul, would find out somehow on their own. Maybe I would come across them on my own journey, share stories about ideas that could shed light into dark places.

This would not address the myriad of issues concerning our ocean's condition however, bring no public attention to the extremes people go to protect our lifegiver. Is this even extreme? I'm already caught in a crossroads and I'm holding onto sponsor proposals because I cannot answer myself, but what is life without the uncertainty of tomorrow?

These thoughts will take flight, will materialize into tangibility, I just question when and how far am I willing to go. I want to inspire, but first lead by example.